duhn-duhn-duhn-duhn-duhn -- uhh, something something -- duhn-duhn, the kids of tomorrow don't need today when they live in the sins of yes-ter-day.

so, i don't have time to go into the big ramble i had planned [man, i even made bullet points, seriously] because, um, operating on 4hr30 sleep last night, & up early for work tomorrow, so. i'm tired. i don't like anything about the routine i follow at the moment. it's. fucking godawful. slowly drained of. things. feeling like -- being rendered into fuzzy static on televisions when they're untuned. kshhhhhhhhhhhr.

but it was going to be a well interesting post. it's just not anymore. maybe i'll make it on my next day off. sunday. cobra starship in the eventimes! but i'm too tired to be excited. m'all tense in my ankles. lame. i miss people. certain ones.

there is nothing you can do that i've not already done to myself, no there is nothing you can do that i've not already done to myself, no there is nothing you can do that i've not already done to myself, no there is nothing you can do that i-have-not al-read-y done to my-SELF!

points if you get the songs. they're both in my head in an accidental brain-mash. i am so. sleep deprived.

i'm going to bed now, 'coz it's past 2.30am, & fuck off, i have to get up at 8. but remind me to talk about incest & freedom of expression tomorrow, mmkay?

here is the reason why jen is awesome: because. ♥

listening to blaqk audio all of today. mmmmelectro. synth synth synth.

uhh. someone made a post of hot girls in the music biz. & i was kind of. just, no. at most of them. because greta salpeter? is wholesome. she's sweet. & keltie colleen is adorable. & that's just not hot to me. even if they'd make nice girlfriends. even vicky-t is borderline not-hot for me because of her lovely long hair & feminine curves. she makes up for it in pouty non-smiles & sometimes indecently short skirts. but lyn-z. is like. guh. yesplz. with a z. opinions, anyone?

half the girls in the original post & in the comments are just. i don't know! just not hot to me. they're just. way too feminine. in that sweet, curvy, fairy tale princess kind of way. i guess i just like girls who are more androgynous, edgy, dark-haired, & kind of. um, weird? like amanda palmer. with her big mouth & straggly hair. or maja, with that don't-fuck-with-me look in her eyes, & her prominent jaw. give me those two over greta any day. greta's just. uhh. i'm sorry, but kind of. boring. visually. to me.

& -- i think i'm going to watch house now, so. yes. i'm going to wander away inconclusively.

i have sketched & outlined my bandombigbang illustration & it is pretty fuckin' rad. joe's, like, this awesome, curvy girl in a miniskirt & rainbow t-shirt, with badly-bleached 'fro. andy's in minishorts & fuck-off boots, starry t-shirt & hippy beads. patrick's got a hat, hoody, baggy jeans, glasses, & she's all podgy & adorable. pete's my favourite, though. pinstripe trousers, jack skellington belt, lip-nose-eyebrow piercings & fuck-off dreads down to her butt. yeah, i'm well proud of this.

have you noticed how saying 'well' as a stand-in for 'really' or 'very' makes you sound incredibly english? like: it sounds well english. i mean, not proper, well-spoken english. chavvy english. i've been influenced by the girls at work. i need to get out of that habit.

okay. it's 9.06. DUN WANNA GO TO WORK.

video for the dresden dolls' new single, night reconnaissance, off their album out on may 20th.



they're both so beautiful. :3

ohman. indochine did a cover of dead or alive's you spin me round [ohgod. it is so, so campy, & the way he says round in his french accent is priceless] & the video is the single most awesome thing i've seen all day. apart from that video of gerard picking mikey up mid-song [the guy doesn't miss a beat] & carrying him across the stage. & apart from that video of frank rapping the theme tune from the fresh prince of bel air. & apart from those videos of panic being their usual ahaha.awwww.wait,wtf. selves in which brendon does a backflip[video called swimming in a green pool]. oh, wait, there was also that video of fans throwing bracelets onstage, in which panic make up a song about it & ryan actually makes a joke.

so, actually, there's been a bunch of awesome videos coming up recently. well done, collective fandoms. *handflap*

in other news, i went to a bunch of charity shops today. got three new tops & a dress for the summer. it was okay, i guess. i just feel like shit every time i go clothes shopping. nothing ever fits or looks good. but i found some nice enough tops that are low-cut at the back to show my tattoo. that's all i really wanted, to be honest. :D

i feel better about the bandombigbang fic i have to illustrate, now. i was thinking it over all night. it looks good in my head, so. i'll see how it turns out. btw, question: who on my flist is participating in bigbang, either writing, illustrating, or fanmixing? just curious.

TICKETS ARE BOOKED TICKETS ARE BOOKED TO AMERICA EVERYTHING IS GOOD & FINE & DANDY I HAVE TO GO TO THE DENTIST NOW BUT SARA IF YOU'RE READING THIS IS SO SO AWESOME & OMGGGG

ugh. uuuuughhhh.

so, right. the prompts are up at bbbartists, & the one i wanted got nicked just before i could get to it, which made me flail a bit, but then i was all, "who is this person who got in before me, huh?" & then i was a bit, "oh, okay." because they like nine inch nails & waycest, so, new friend, this is all good & groovy. HOWEVER.

HOWEVER, right. i decided to pick another one. & i thought, hey, i'll pick another creepy mcr one with, like, shadowy figures & strange occurences & angst & BLOOD & EMO THINGS. but then i came across a fall out boy genderswap, & i thought, you know what? seeing as gender roles & identity are the things i'm sort of the most interested in, ever, maybe i'll do that, because i want to read something i'm really going to enjoy, something exploring the themes i'm always thinking & getting ranty about. plus, it'll give me a challenge, to draw something naturalistic & accurate, rather than abstract, creepy, anorexic figures with eyeballs hanging out, you know?

but now i'm fucking ANNOYED because i don't want to do this anymore. i don't want to draw fall out boy as girls. i want to draw frank with a cursed tattoo & gerard as a priest with lots of blood & religious angst. i don't draw fluff, man. i draw srs shit. but now i'm kind of stuck with it, & this is kind of. lame.

i'm not critisicing the fic! the fic's not a problem. i just. i made a mistake picking that story. ugh. LAME. i want, like. blood, dammit. blood & guts & fingernails in eyes. what was i thinking?

uhh. i'm going to go draw something really fucking gory to vent, now. *headdesk*

ha. hahahaha. thud.

started this one months ago, working on finishing it now. madness & silliness of epic proportions.

( i'm totally fucking serious about this )

ahahahaohdear. that aside. am fucking tired & majorly cranky. got woken up at 5am by a fucking magpie on my windowsill, cawing into my bedroom like the cheeky fucking bastard it was. came back from work, sniping at everyone in the house, wanting to lie down & fucking -- pass out, or whatever. so sick of working every day. plus, hayfever. yay. but day off monday. holding onto the little things, eh? m'gonna go eat an apple.

think happy thoughts. x